I am somewhat new to this lifestyle and understanding my place in it. I knew from the very beginning of finding it that I am all submissive. I have always wanted to please others. I have had to be in control of most of my adult life and am one that wants to be controlled (in a loving protective way), or at least guided by someone. Learning more and more of the lifestyle made me find other parts and pieces that make me a whole in this vast makeup of BDSM-D/s. I have learned the parts that were missing in sex to make it more interesting and fun instead of monotonous and, dare I say it, Vanilla.
I have learned that the reason I felt turned on and wet when thrown over a knee and spanked was a button for me in my kinky nature. That the reason chills went down my neck and into my other body parts when my hair was pulled was also another button for me. And these are just examples of the things I have found in the last few years.
My need for consistency, stability and support have been overpowering and I am realizing I have found it in my Daddy. He has shown and given me so much that I thought I would never find. I have experienced so many firsts and so many things I never thought possible because of him and feel I must be the luckiest girl in the whole world. I thank him every day, if not verbally than by trying to do little things for him, and always thanking him in my head. But most of all by giving him my submission and love every day.
This submissive being I have found and am understanding more and more every day feels like she is spreading her wings and flying. This submissive being that is me.