Do you ever get scared, worried, nervous? That you are doing things wrong, making wrong decisions, in the wrong place, with the wrong person? I Do. All the time. But I have to believe I am here, where I am today, with the person I am with, etc… for a reason. If not to be forever, than to be right now. I have always been one to overthink, overanalyze, over love (if there is such a thing), over everything! I have learned that I have to work through these issues and find the truth. My truth.
I have learned that before reacting, breathe. Before speaking, breathe. Before believing, breathe, and pull out the real not the imagined. I have not accomplished this much yet, but I am working on it. Its a very important and healthy way of looking at things and people. At least to me it is.
I have also learned to trust my instincts and feelings about people and am learning to speak my mind and hold firm to things I believe others will try to manipulate me from. The boundaries I know I have and should be respected by others. This is especially hard for me because I have never implemented and held firm to these personal boundaries. Knowing that this is one of the reasons I am where I am today regarding issues I am dealing with makes me work harder on this.
Being over-sensitive about things is another issue, but I believe it can be both a gift and a curse. A curse, because it gets me to the over-everything point. It makes my emotions feed off others emotions and feelings as well, putting me into a tailspin at times. But also a gift, because I believe it is what gives me my creative nature. It gives me understanding of others more than I normally would be. It gives me insight to things and people that I don’t believe i would have if not for my sensitivity. Is that too much? Weird? I don’t know.
Anyway, that is my thoughts going through my head on this Saturday.