There I Go Again

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I really hate when I have too much time and quiet on my hands.  I went through some anxiety and over thinking yesterday. Even while trying to keep myself busy and away from it. Hate that!

Was doing the anxious, overthinking, crying, believing false voices in my head kind of thing.  Here I thought I was getting away from that and handling things better than I have been. Not! At least not yesterday.

Thing is, when my man, my Daddy, is not here and I can’t be with him to share in something that means a lot to him and a lot to me, it spurs my mind to do that crazy stuff and put me in a mode I can’t deal with very well.  You know what I mean?

My mind’s voice starts working on me negatively.  Telling me things that are untrue and that make me fall into that depressive unhappy non-loving myself mode.

So I got in touch with a couple of close friends and they got me through the rest of the evening as well as talking to Daddy.

I am a blessed and lucky girl even though at times I don’t feel like it.

Kat xx

Bah Humbug…

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I’ve been so  busy this week that I have barely been able to do anything here on my blog.  I guess that is pretty good. Keeps me from thinking too much.

Being apart from Daddy for Christmas and getting through things still here, I just feel more numb than emotional right now.  Can’t decide if that is good or bad.  And then every now and then I tear up for no reason.  Ugh!

I just know I used to love this time of the year.  I was always the one with the Christmas spirit.  The one that loved shopping and getting things for others and love giving gifts to everyone.  The one with stars in her eyes, loving the beautiful Christmas lights everywhere and making sure my kids enjoyed every minute of the holidays.

Unfortunately, I will be very happy once the holiday season is over this year.

I do love the music and the lights still, but have hardly decorated and don’t really feel the thrill as I normally do for this wonderful time of the year.  😦

Despite me and my somewhat bah humbug attitude, I hope you all have a wonderful happy Christmas!! ❤

Kat xx

When Life Gets In The Way

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When life gets in the way, gets busy and takes me away from the other things I enjoy, it gets frustrating and I feel out of the loop, so to speak.  I haven’t been able to give my attention here for the past week since I have been so busy and so haven’t been able to participate in a couple of things or keep up with my faves here.

I know it’s okay and can’t be helped, but I just feel bad when that happens.

I feel so close to the other bloggers here and love keeping up with them daily.  The Holiday Season just gets us busy at times though and it is to be expected, right?

I even feel it during this time with Daddy.  We both, being LDR still, have things we have to do where we are and it takes us away from each other and our time we normally have to make a connection with one another.  It gets frustrating, at least to me, and I start doing that mind thing where my thoughts go on their stupid route of over thinking and over analyzing again! (*rolling eyes*)

I have to tell myself, “Stop that Kat!  You’re doing it again.  Your “not-true thinking” has to stop!” A lot of times it will help but sometimes I have to go into my anxious, crying mode before I finally kick myself and stop.  Crazy, right?  You would think by now I could not do this silly stuff and know better! I mean, it even affects me writing and coming up with things to write!!

But then I talk to Daddy, settle down and all is okay again.  He centers and calms me.

So, now that I can slow down a bit for the next couple of days, maybe I can get a few posts done.  🙂

Kat xx

*Pic from Pinterest

 

Sexy Saturday’s #SoSS

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I am late but had to get this in! Another week that has flown by.  I participated as much as I could this week so had fun with my writing.  There are so many talented writers on here!!

Here are some of the ones I enjoyed the most:

Masturbation Monday:

The Brotherhood by The Library of Nell is a sexy beginning of a story I can’t wait to read more of and find out what is next!!

When Lust Lives On by FlossDoesLife is about the love/sex life of a grandmother and her remembering those days.

Theatre by Asrai Devin is about that naughtiness in a theatre that I am sure several people have enjoyed 😉

Wicked Wednesday:

The Past Smells of Men by May More is a great explanation of what the smell of a man can do 😉

Inhale by Kisungura is a lovely description of how the memory of smell can affect us.

Scent by F Dot Leonora is about the lovely scent of home

Sinful Sunday:

Demons by Little Switch Bitch. I love the explination!

Becoming a Butterfly by Submissy is beautiful

A Mermaid Underneath by Aurora Glory is gorgeous

Some other prompts to check out:

TMI Tuesday

Food For Thought Friday

Check out each prompt and jump in next week if you feel so inclined! If not, enjoy some great reads!  🙂

Kat xx

Dom, Sub, Switch? – Day 1 of 30 Days of Kink

I saw a fellow blogger posting the 30 days of Kink challenge and decided I wanted to do this starting today, November 1. So, this should be interesting…here goes:

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Definitely Submissive!  I love to serve and feel needed.  I feel I need guidance, protection, support and a bit of discipline.  I cannot see myself as a dominant nor switch.

Definition of: What is a sub? By The Ultimate Guide to being a Submissive

The definition of a submissive is an obedient, compliant person who likes to give up control.  They crave being used and need to serve.  They are the subservient partner of a relationship and that is why “sub” is always spelled with a lowercase while “Dom” is always capital.  A submissive can take on many different roles such as:

They strive to please their Dom in all things, not just sexually.  This means that they may have to give up some of their own personal freedoms and preferences.  It is not uncommon for a sub to have a mild and quiet personality. They are obedient, and accept disciplinewhen needed.  Subs aim to conduct themselves  in a respectful and modest manner at all times, recognizing that their behavior is a direct reflection on their Dom.

I don’t completely agree with the above definition, but, it covers all. I am somewhat of a little (DD/lg, D/s-where I don’t do age play but need the guidance and enjoy doing things like coloring, watching movies, etc…), slight masochist and Kitten/babygirl.  I need the freedom to give up my control to center my mind and being.  My mind does the over-thinking, over-analyzing a lot and needs that guidance and giving up of control to lead it to be quiet.  It’s amazing to have that ability in the D/s relationship.

Now, we are all different and have our own ways of doing things and living the lifestyle in our own way.  It is up to the Dom/sub relationship/partners to determine what rules and ways of that D/s relationship they will live and follow, whether it be just a relationship where they get together as scheduled, or a 24/7/365 lifestyle relationship.

So, that is my kinky self…submissive.

Have a wonderful day and Happy November 1!

Kat xx

*Pic from Tinkleberry

Sexy Saturday Picks

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I see a lot of #SoSS posts and realize I am not that great with doing things, what I see as, the “proper” way of doing them, so thought I would try it this way first. 🙂

Maybe this will get me in the right frame of mind for another time (you never know).

Anyway, I decided to pick 2 of my favorite posts for the week from each category I have started following and/or participating in:

Masturbation Monday:

Exposed was yummy! I felt a part of this sexy hot shower scene.

Always was hauntingly sexy and erotic.

TMI Tuesday:

The Pink Seam – Great answers and entertaining, especially about the dentist! 😉

Floss – Love her explanation of name, her saying and her random Harry Potter extra! 🙂

Extra: Maitre – This one is my Daddy’s responses and quite love his saying and absolutely love his random extra!! ❤

Wicked Wednesday:

Mark Me – a definite relatable story about marks

Shades of Purple – a wonderfully light sexy story about her birthday gift and something she will remember when using said gift because of her silly friends. Loved this!

Sinful Sunday:

Since these are sexy pics I am putting them last.

Little Switch Bitch – Love me some cute socks!!

Annie Savoy – Her heart pic is the sweetest!

There are so many others that I liked from all these categories. I am finding out about other weekly posts to join in and am having a lot of fun doing so!!

So far, these are the ones I have participated in:

Sinful Sunday – Found on Molly’s Daily Kiss

Masturbation Monday – Found on Kayla Lords Site

TMI Tuesday – Blog found here

Wicked Wednesday – On Marie Rebelle’s blog

I have not participated in any others yet, as I am just getting started in the last two weeks to jump in.  I hope you find others you enjoy from my sharing and happy writing/reading/finding new blogs to read!!

Enjoy the rest of your weekend!! 🙂

Kat xx

*SS Pic from Pinterest

TMI Tuesday – Why is eating bad food, like having bad sex?

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1. Do you like tattoos? Do you have any tattoos?  I love tattoos, especially if they mean something special to the person.  Yes I have tattoos.

2. How did you pick your online profile name? Just wanted something with “kitten or Kat” since Daddy calls me Kitten most of the time and including Kink (Kinx) in it for my writing.

3. What’s one saying you try to live by? Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.  I have always believed that what you give out into the world you get back.

4. What was the last bad meal you ate? Why was it so awful? I can’t remember what my last bad meal was and why it was so awful…, I believe it was when I tried fish for breakfast. Nope, not me.

5. When was your last bad sexual encounter? Why was it so awful? I think my last bad sexual encounter was a few years ago when I was trying really hard to make things good and it ended up being worse.

Bonus: Tell us something random.  – Random….hmmm….I want to learn a new language!

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Happy TMI Tuesday!