Not Good Enough

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Do you ever feel you are not good enough?

I have several times.  When my mind over-thinks and over-analyzes things that I have or haven’t done.  Where I think I failed in what I was trying to do. Me trying to make someone happy or make something happen that I feel will make others (along with myself) happy.  Feeling then overwhelmed with the feeling of failure or not being good enough.

It’s that mind taking over again.  I have worked on this so much recently and tried to make myself busy when I feel myself starting up this rehearsed thought process in my head.  I have been doing so much better.  Yet just these last few weeks it still crept through my thoughts and hit me once again.

I had to go to Daddy and tell him, as he coaxed it out of me, what I was feeling and why.  He then reassured me and pointed out why I had no reason to feel this way and how great I have been doing where this is concerned.  He told me I have grown by leaps and bounds since we first met and how I have gone from a scared little girl to a more confident woman.  That I may not see it because of the small increments I have gone by, but that he sees it all the time and is proud of me for it.

His saying this made me feel so much better!

I do see my improvements but I guess I feel frustrated because I don’t want to fall into this mind trap anymore.  Yet I continue to do so.  And I understand that we all go through it to some extent or another.  Just some of us more so.  We learn to deal with it in the best way that we know how to.  I am learning every day of new ways of dealing with these mind issues.

I know i am good enough.  I know it is taking me some time to learn what to do and put into practice those things that help me through.  I hope by doing so, and sharing with you here, that I might can help others going through the same issues to understand they are good enough too.

KK xx

*Pic from Pinterest and From up North

Do you ever get scared?

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Do you ever get scared?

Being the over thinking, over analyzing person I am I do maybe a bit more than some.  Then again, maybe mine is like others as well.

Getting scared of things like making the wrong decisions; in relationships, things I do, things I say, people I contact, etc….  I don’t know if you would even call it scared. Maybe uncertainty, nervous, anxiety and things like that instead.

All I know is I have a lot of that any more.  Where I used to be confident in what I did, said, handled things, etc…, I no longer am that person anymore.  I really don’t get it.  Although, I am finding out so much more about me at this time in my life.  I am finding the me I never knew. I guess because I now have the time to do so.

I am finding this world that I have just existed on, has so much more to offer and to see than I ever knew.  I never opened myself up to more until recently and wow, there is so much to experience and be a part of! I want to get outside this box I have been living in and do so much more.  I’m excited about the thought, yet scared at the same time.

So here I am back to the initial thought.  Is it scared or something more?

KK xx

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100 Followers!

I know it’s silly, but I just realized I have 100 followers!! I am surprised, exited and thankful. When I started this blog I just wanted somewhere I could share my thoughts, outlooks and writings. I am getting to know some great people that share my views on things and that I learn a lot from too.

Thank you to all that follow me. I look forward to so much more!

KK xx

Vent time…

I have something that is foremost on my mind. Something that has bothered me for the past few years on and off and has come to my attention yet again. Soooo, I just need to vent for s moment….

Why are people so judgmental and stick their noses into other people’s business?? Either they think they are helping or they assume they see and know something that is only partial on the surface, not knowing the whole story. Then they stick their unwelcome noses into someone’s business!

I am seriously tired of people butting into my business and not knowing the whole story‼️ I just want to say, “What? You’re so bored and unhappy with yours, but you have to make someone else’s life miserable??”

“Go ahead and walk in my shoes for a while, then you will get the picture. Otherwise…My life is MY LIFE…Get a life and butt out of mine!”

Just had to get that frustration out of my head.🙈

So sorry…thank you for giving me some venting space💋xx

KK

* Pic from Pinterest