Do you have one of those minds…?

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Do you have one of those minds that you think of one thought and your mind takes off in all these angles of negative thinking and anxious thinking and unreal thinking making you stressed, anxious, scared, nervous, upset…Oh I could just go on and on!!

That is mine on a daily basis.  I am trying to learn to find ways of staying away from these negative thoughts and feelings by thinking of other things, learning to breathe, getting on the computer and finding things to keep me occupied, writing down my thoughts, listening to music, talking to someone… Just anything to get myself away from such thoughts and feelings.  Cause once you start on that roller coaster it’s hard to get off.  Mine is normally about other people.  Loved ones and their thoughts, perceptions, feelings, etc…about me, what I say, what I do, just any ole thing that I worry about.

I over-think, over-analyze, over-process, over-everything!! It’s mainly all right there in my head. Not the truth. Most the time the furthest from the truth. Yet there I am thinking and feeling it, so it must be real, it must be the truth, right?? No not right!

So why do I do these things to myself? Why do I have such a hard time about self-worth and being okay in me? I never pictured myself as this person.  I never realized until I began trying to understand me that I am so much more complicated than I ever knew.

How about you?

~KK xx

*Pic off Pinterest

Peace and Happiness

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Sitting here quietly thinking of things I like and things that bring me peace, I realize there are quite a few things and I will list them below.

*Quiet walks on the beach

*Quiet walks in the woods

*Sitting and listening to the ocean waves hit the shore

*Sitting and listening to the waves hit the shore line at the lake or hitting the side of the boat as you ride through the waves and feeling the wind hit your face.

*Listening to the birds sing

*Soft music as you close your eyes and just listen

*Sitting on the front porch and listening to children playing down the road

*The slow breathing as the one you love sleeps

*The sound of pure laughter

*Sitting quietly on the couch and reading a great book

*Listening to a steady rain shower

*Listening to the rumble of a thunder storm

*The smell of something you love cooking

*A smile on the face of the person you love

*The sound of his voice

I know there are so many more but these are a good beginning.

What brings you peace and happiness?

KK xx

*Pic found on Pinterest

Do you ever…?

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Do you ever have times where you sit down to write about something, but you have so much going around in your head you can’t pin down one thing to write about??

Yeah, that’s me right now….

 

*Pic from Pinterest

Do you ever get scared…?

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Do you ever get scared, worried, nervous? That you are doing things wrong, making wrong decisions, in the wrong place, with the wrong person?  I Do. All the time.  But I have to believe I am here, where I am today, with the person I am with, etc… for a reason.  If not to be forever, than to be right now.  I have always been one to overthink, overanalyze, over love (if there is such a thing), over everything! I have learned that I have to work through these issues and find the truth. My truth.

I have learned that before reacting, breathe.  Before speaking, breathe. Before believing, breathe, and pull out the real not the imagined.  I have not accomplished this much yet, but I am working on it.  Its a very important and healthy way of looking at things and people.  At least to me it is.

I have also learned to trust my instincts and feelings about people and am learning to speak my mind and hold firm to things I believe others will try to manipulate me from. The boundaries I know I have and should be respected by others.  This is especially hard for me because I have never implemented and held firm to these personal boundaries.  Knowing that this is one of the reasons I am where I am today regarding issues I am dealing with makes me work harder on this.

Being over-sensitive about things is another issue, but I believe it can be both a gift and a curse.  A curse, because it gets me to the over-everything point.  It makes my emotions feed off others emotions and feelings as well, putting me into a tailspin at times.  But also a gift, because I believe it is what gives me my creative nature.  It gives me understanding of others more than I normally would be.  It gives me insight to things and people that I don’t believe i would have if not for my sensitivity. Is that too much? Weird? I don’t know.

Anyway, that is my thoughts going through my head on this Saturday.

KK xx

Mystery Blogger Award Nomination

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https://thecandiiclub.com made me squeal with the great honor of nominating me to the Mystery Blogger Award. Thank you so so much!!  Can I nominate you too?? Love your blog!!

What Is Mystery Blogger Award

Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; and they do it with so much love and passion.
– Okoto Enigma( The creator of this award)

The Rules

  1. Put the award logo/image on your blog
  2. List the rules.
  3. Thank whoever nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  4. Mention the creator of the award and provide a link as well
  5. Tell your readers 3 things about yourself
  6. You have to nominate 10 – 20 people
  7. Notify your nominees by commenting on their blog
  8. Ask your nominees any 5 questions of your choice; with one weird or funny question (specify)
  9. Share a link to your best post(s)

Three things about myself

  1.  I care about people to a fault.  Even to a point I lose myself at times
  2.  I love learning new things and meeting new people
  3. I have several avenues of creativity

Questions that I need to answer:

1.  What do you think that seems to be lacking in our Society with people?

I think a genuine interest in others is lacking. So many people are selfish now-a-days that they forget there are others out there that just need to be listened to or given a moment of their time.

2.  Do you feel that you have made the most of your life up too now? And if you could going forward what do you want people to do that could change this world?

Oh I feel I could have done so much more up to this point in my life.  I would like people to make an effort to make a difference in at least one person’s life. Pay it forward, as they say.

3  Tell me your most extreme moment that made you look at yourself? And what did you learn?

My most extreme moment that made me look at myself and that there might be a problem was when I realized something was missing and I was beginning to do things to upset others around me.  I learned that there was something going on and I sought help that was needed to help me find the real me.

4  If you had to go back to your younger self .. how old would you be? And what would you say to her/him and why would you say it??

I would go back to my 12 year old self and tell her to be strong, go for what she wanted and have confidence in herself to make her dreams and goals a reality no matter what others told her. I would say this because I have always put others and other things first instead as well as listened to the negative from others that I couldn’t do it.

[Remember I picked you for a reason.. so answer them truthfully, each person is here on this journey each person I selected because I felt that they are quite uniquely wired..]

  1. If you looked at your life and yourself.. what would you like to advise others to teach people how to treat one another?  I would tell them to realize others need our support and presence but they don’t need us to take over and control the other person’s situation or life.
  2. If you had to change the world I would love you to list what it would be and why? I wish for world peace… Isn’t that the answer 😉  No really… I would love to see the world living in a more peaceful coexistance.  There is so much anger and negativity in this world, or at least it is seen more now than ever before.  It is scary to imagine what this world will be like in 50-100 years from now.
  3. Mental Health is an issue in this society at this moment.. What is your thoughts of how this can change? Do you have anything that could help other people in helping them get better? list at least 5 or more and tell us why? The more educational information out there and available, we are finding out daily there is more and more health issues out there in the world.  I believe the more we find out about these issues and make sure not only those with the issues, but others that come in contact with them through other people, are well educated and know how to handle them.  I have found and believe there is help in so many ways and so many avenues for those going through these issues that help on a daily basis. There are help lines, counseling, in-house sessions, group sessions, doctors, and so much more out there to go to.  Very commonly heard of issues are PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Schizophrenia, and Bipolar Disorder, just to name a few.

I chose the following because they have held my attention and I look for a new blog from them daily.  They are not all the ones I follow and have made a difference to me since I have been here (the short time it has been), and if I could I would list my whole entire list I follow! So….

Here are my nominations:

https://undomestictedbitch.wordpress.com

https://sirandkittensplayplace.com

https://curiousclitty.wordpress.com

https://southernsirsplace.com

https://kaylalords.com 

https://dreadpoetssobriety.com 

https://porngirl.blog

https://in10nseblog.wordpress.com

https://alphaandkat.com

https://missusmistress.wordpress.com

https://discoveringyourhappiness.com

My questions for you, my nominees, to answer:

  1. If you could, what is the one most important thing you would like to share with the world?
  2. What made you decide to start a blog?
  3. Who has made the biggest impact on your life?
  4. What one thing about yourself do you think is weird/funny?
  5. If there is one person you could go back in time to, who is it and what would you say or do?

Since I have not been posting for long a have a few posts that have received a lot of views, a good bit of likes and a few comments on.  The one I had the most views on is My View of This Lifestyle

Good luck to you all and I hope this brings millions of views to your blog and wonderful posts!  Thank you Candii for nominating me! You are amazing!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yes, Sir, I am ready…

As he begins to pepper my cheeks with his hand as a warm up, I feel all toasty and warm, letting out a mewl with his attention to making me all pink and rosy.  He stops a moment and rubs both cheeks taking in the work he has done so far.  He then changes over to the brush paddle.

“Brush paddle now Kitten. Ready?”

“Yes, Sir, I am ready.”

“Good girl, Kitten.”

He then proceeds to work the paddle over both cheeks and upper thighs, starting light and working up to a harder contact.  Certain spots are feeling more sensitive and I begin to take a sharp breath in each time these spots are reached.

He pauses once again and touching each cheek he comments on how lovely the color is.  He picks up the leather paddle and once again lets me know we are beginning and he continues.

The contact is even more intense and at times I squeal at the sharp pain that hits certain areas.  Knowing this is not as hard as it can be, I take in the feelings and focus on the sensations and my body’s reactions.  Then once again he pauses and asks me if I am okay.

“Yes Sir,” I say.

He reaches between my legs and touches my girlie parts saying, “Hmmm…seems like my babygirl is enjoying this a bit.”

“Yes Sir.”

“Good girl.”

“Okay, Kitten, I am going to have you count these next ones. There will be 20. After each I want you to say, ‘Thank you Daddy, may I have another?’ Understand babygirl?”

“Yes Daddy, I understand.”

“Good girl.”

He picks up the larger leather paddle and begins.  As he continues, each spanking gets harder and he is covering all over my cheeks and upper thighs, especially the sweet spots.  By the time we are at 16 I am squealing and moaning before saying my “Thank you Daddy, may I have another.”  I am almost breathless from the intensity and overwhelmingly horny and needing a release.

He stops as we reach 20 and says, “Good girl, Kitten. You took that very well.”

Breathlessly I say, “Thank you, Daddy.”

Sharing…

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Reading blogs from others is fascinating to me.  It amazes me how open to sharing so many are.  I myself, being one of them, with a bit of me at guard doing so.  Yet I still do.  It makes me think, do others think we are real or fake by us sharing so freely? Do they realize they are looking into a person and their soul by the sharing that is done?  Some even may use their real names in the sharing, while others will never do so.  

I know a lot of people share these moments, happenings and thoughts to deal with their life in the best way they know how to.  Like writing in a live diary where the whole world can see, read and share.  Many deal with anxiety, depression, feeling of loss, stress, fears and even feelings of happiness and joy.  Just everything in their mind that they want to share and get out of their head.  

Knowing there are others out there going through the same things or similar things helps others, I believe.  I see it in the responses and discussions on different blogs.  It shows we are not alone in what we go through and there is always someone out there going through something very much the same. 

I feel very blessed to be a part of it, if not but a tiny part.  

KK xx